The influence of Seesmic

So I discovered a video conversation site this week and it is already quite addicting. This site is interesting in the sense that it is very personable however I have found it semi-difficult to jump right into the conversations. This of course is on my part and I am trying to work on that. Already, I have seen this amazing Hank drum where this guy showed one he had made and is even selling them for over $300.00 each. Well this drum was made out of a propane tank and the sound is awesome. And so my “make-it-happen” boyfriend went right into action and today we almost finished making this sweet sounding drum. The tabs are for tuning and that alone will need practice on our part. The work was absolutely hard and it even took a little investing but I can see the results already and think there is great potential for these drums to be in even a small demand. I am anxious to improve our techniques and speed up our process. I will update on our progress and thanks to Christian on Seesmic for this inspiration.

The Weight of the World

If weight obsession is a mental illness than commit me. I am completely obsessed with my weight and being thin absolutely makes me happy. As sad as this may sound, it is the honest truth. I grew up being chubby and when I was a young teen I talked my mom into letting me order Fatburn pills off TV. They did work and when I was a senior in high school I was finally the skinny one. After all that, I continued to be consumed by how fat I was and how thin I wasn’t. After shadowing my mother in fad diets, I found a magic diet that I was sure never to let go of.  The sad lure of a drug not for the way it makes one feel but for the way it makes one look. As this was not a safe and lasting road to success there had to be a way to be thin and healthy. The sure way to making my life long goal of being thin was found in a life changing routing of including regular exercise. I hit the gym and do the elliptical 50 minutes at least 5 days a week. I drink lots of coffee and eat not too bad but not that great either. When I started this after my second son I weighed 165 pounds. After 8 months I had lost 45 pounds and at over 2 years now I am at 114. So I do know that this method works and follow this religiously. However, I must say I think this weight issue is on my mind too much and wonder if others are as consumed as I am even at a healthy weight. If I miss a day my mood turns bad and I have trouble eating because I just know I must be gaining weight. It does seem a little much and that part can’t be healthy can it?